Marissa Jacobs

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another one ✨

I had the most surreal and beautiful dream last night and I’m NOT TELLING Y’ALL ABOUT IT

😂😂😂

anytime I have dreams, I think about Joseph the Dreamer. I think about ways that my life compares to his.

as I look over the past year, I think I’m reaching the place where all of the dreams make sense. Even down to the forgiveness that I’ve had to walk in.

::breathe in, breathe out::

Joseph’s road to greatness was paved with hardship, loss, humiliation…pain.

I’ve had a lot of time to sit with disappointment, humiliation, frustration, and pain. They were my companions for a while.

this year, I thanked them and said goodbye. A final farewell. They served me well. For it was in those times of bleakness that I learned to lean on God. Everything that could be shaken, was.

And once the shaking stopped, there was so much restoration. Immediately after I let go, the restoration of things that were once dead began to spring up.

I really can’t even begin to tell you guys the type of time I’m on these days.

I’ll say this. The fire is lit.

i took every loss like a G.

Defeat didn’t paralyze me.

I broke…but I was in The Potter’s hands.

ha, my “big hands”, “fat girl love”, and “professional student-ship” weren’t too much for Him to hold! 😉

Here’s what’s so dope:

There was a soft, vulnerable, tender woman underneath the armor.

Like, whaaaat????

Here’s what’s crazy: I’ve never felt more clear or more free. I’ve never felt more real…I’ve never actually learned how to harness the power in meekness or the beauty in letting go completely.

As God is answering and making sense of old dreams…He has given me new promises and new dreams.
i don’t think it’s a coincidence that I was given this beautiful puzzle-piece-dream on the last night of my previous year…

another reminder, that this is not the end, but it’s the beginning of one of the best chapters YET.

I’m saying this with my chest…

Cheers to every single thing that lies ahead ✨✨